Almost 8 weeks...progress pics

June 22, 2010 to August 15th 2010

Catching up

Ok, let's see - weigh in was 289.8. Here are pics:



And belly shot (first one and then more recent):


6/22/10 - 7/15/10

Look-it that - my boobs officially stick out farther than my belly now!

Here's front shot:


So, 14.4 lbs gone, and 2-3 inches everywhere.

And I still feel - and am - fat. It's disheartening.

The up side is my endurance, my stamina, has really increased. My health is way better. I have to see that as a positive.

Comparison...

I was goofing around last night, and decided to see if the tank top I took my first pic in fit any better (it does) and then to take a comparison photo.

The first one is 6/22/10

The second is 7/12/10 (three weeks later)

I really hate coming up with these blog entry titles...

So, I weighed in on the Wii Fit today and it said I went up since yesterday - now I know the Wii Fit is an asshole, but still - and I was so frustrated I started crying. My 8 year old son said "Don't worry Mom, it'll be slow but you'll lose weight." I have a couple of great kids.

So I started looking at comparison pics to try and see the difference, and damn, I think I do. The amazing thing is I think I see it between Thursday's pics and the ones I took this morning!

6/24/10 7/1/10 7/8/10 7/11/10

Yes, that last one is only 3 days after the one before it. Amazing to me!

Front view:

6/24/10 7/1/10 7/8/10 7/11/10

And face:

6/24/10 7/11/10

So, no matter what that "little asshole voice" on the Wii Fit tells me, I feel slightly better.

This is just SO SLOW.

Let's see - things that are frustrating:

I took the day off today to take the kids to the pool and it's thunderstorming all day.
I was retaining water at my WW weigh-in yesterday so only registered .6 lb weight loss by their scale.
My meeting w/ the Y "trainer" wasn't so much a "trainer" as some 20-something bimbo giving a memorized speech.

Things that are good:
We can go to the Y and go swimming.
My scale at home says 287 (that's a 4-5 lb weight loss from last week) and the Wii Fit says 290 (4-5 lb weight loss from last week) so I'm sure that the WW scale will show it next week, will just have to drink lots of water all week.
Trainer....on that I got nothin'.

BUT, I can finally start to see a difference in my photo tracking:


This is 6/22/10 approx 299 ? // This is 7/8/10 293.6 lbs by WW scale

'Course, I could be on crack.

I've lost inches though - in each in waist, hips and thighs, and 1.5 in arms.

Ok, I'm taking the kids to the Y now. Yippee.

Almost forgot!

Went to see Weird Al last night (btw, if you ever get the chance to see Weird Al, DO IT. I cannot stress this enough. Seriously.)

Anyway, they didn't have an extra large in the shirt I wanted, so I got the large, and had hubby take a pic of me in it so that I can see the progress later when it actually fits - so here that is:



I have no idea why I was looking so pissed off, other than that I was way tired (I walked 2.25 miles at lunch yesterday and then another .5 to and from parking to the venue, so I was all done by the time we got home.)

Anyway, this will still serve as a good comparison pic for when I can wear this tank and not look like the Stay-Puft Marshmallow Man...

;)

Baby, it's HOT outside

My 5 year old daughter - we'll call her Flipperbiscuit (looooong story) - kept me honest and held me to the promise to take her for a walk in the neighborhood. We've got a route that is just about a mile (thanks to mapmyride.com) and we just went and did that. Now hubby and Flipper are running to Subway to get dinner. Mmmm....

So, at my WW meeting this past Thursday I hit my first 10 lbs lost! Got my ribbon and everything! Lost 4 lbs in the past week. My scale and my Wii Fit here at home are both "lighter" than the WW scale, so I can't go by them for "official" results, but according to the bathroom scale this morning I hit 289 (and it DID say I was over 300 three weeks ago - 301 I believe - so I can still chart the trend) - I can't wait (weight? Yeah, I'm a dork.) until the 'official' scale says the 280s.

My mini-goal is to be at my 10% weight loss by August 19th, when I'm going to Put-In-Bay with my Mom and my Aunt and my kids. That's a very do-able goal - my 10% puts me at 273.8 lbs and I should just about hit that by Aug 19th if I keep up like I have been. I'm really hoping that starting strength training at the Y will yield some results as well.

My next mini-goal is to hit 253.4 by Halloween, which would be just over 50 lbs lost. I have lots of friends that I see once a year at my annual Halloween party, and I want to "wow" them :)

Anywho, here's a pic from this past Thursday:

Here's me at 294.2

Here's my ribbon :) :


How weird it is (for me, and to me) that I'm looking forward to starting strength training at the gym. I can't wait to watch myself change. I can't wait to be on the outside who I am on the inside - for the image in the mirror to look right.

Some things that have occurred to me lately:

Small changes are still changes

It's ok to leave food on my plate - my dogs appreciate it!

I am WORTH this.

Slow and steady wins the race...

I'm starting to see the progress - in the measuring tape as well as the scale. I weigh in tomorrow for the official weight, but my guess is around 3 lbs this past week. Whoot!

Gonna get a Y membership for the fam - that'll come with a trainer for me and a 12 week training program. As I said to the hubby, I may never have 6 pack abs but it's time to lose the keg.

I have so much more energy these days, and I fill up so much faster. I don't want to snack at night either, which blows my mind. I had to MAKE myself eat some popcorn last night, just to meet my Points requirement.

The thing that keeps flooring me? This is FUN.

Numba 2

Laundry put away, garage sale stuff gone through to take to K's tomorrow, shower soon.

Ok, so here's the thing - I'm fat, and I'm tired of being fat, so I'm on this long stupid journey to not being fat anymore. As my husband keeps reminding me, I've done it before, I can do it again (except this time without the gaining it all back plus 50 more). It's not easy though. In fact it's the opposite of easy, which in this case is 'sucky.'

So, stats: beginning weight on June 10th was 304.2 lbs. After 2 weeks of Weight Watchers, on June 24th it was 298.2. I know logically that that is a good start, but I'm a very impatient person and I personally think it sucks. I want to go to sleep tonight and wake up right before Halloween 50 lbs or more lighter. However, without some form of coma (and really, who wants that...) I don't see that happening, so it's the slow-as-snails process for right now. Suck.

I have a Wii Fit Plus, though, and a recumbent exercyle, and a good pair of walking shoes, so I'm trying. Making the (very sudden) transition from sedentary eat-a-bag-of-potato-chips-every-evening lifestyle to get-up-at-5-a.m. and only eat what WW tells me I can lifestyle has been a bit of a shock to ye olde system. I tend to go overboard with each thing in my life so I have to be careful that I don't get too nuts with this, because I KNOW all the tricks, I KNOW all the truths, I KNOW that not eating does the opposite of what you think it will - I KNOW enough to be a trainer, I just don't put it into practice on myself often, in either direction. That's my sticking point.

So, next is to figure out how to post photos - let's see...

In the wayback machine - July of 1999, approximately 195lbs:



Then, I got pregnant, got lazy, got pregnant again, got more lazy, went through severe depression, stayed lazy, hid my depression in a bag of chips (many, many bags of chips) and this past May was:


In this pic I'm somewhere in the neighborhood of 305 here.

So, finally, something in me flipped over - it was time to stop drowning my sorrows in french onion dip and fucking DO something about it. Unfortunately I did not take a "before" picture the first week, but I did this past week, so here's two weeks in to WW:

This is 298.2 lbs.

Of course, I went through my closet today - one of the helpful hints I read recently was to get rid of any clothes that don't make you feel good about yourself, and since I get most of my clothes at the thrift store (not a money issue really, more an "I don't want to spend real money on fat clothes" issue - even though it's been more than 10 years since I was anywhere near thin, that mentality never completely left me, which is probably a good thing, in retrospect...) Wait, were was I? Oh, right - since I get most of my clothes at the thrift store, a lot of them fall much more into the "well, it fits" category and less into the "I really love this" category. So, point was, I went through and weeded out my closet today - which was good - and found a pair of black pants that I bought when I was at my thinnest 10 years ago. Not so good. I think the waist *might* fit around my thigh now. I'm not sure why I kept them - or why I put them back in my closet today - some misguided inspiration tactic I guess. I'll just have to try not to obsess.

Ok, it's time for a shower. More later.

One down, one million to go...

I'm not much good at journal-ing. I can't even SPELL journaling. Journalling. Keeping a diary. Whatever. Anyway, I did it for a while when I was a teenager - like 13 through some haphazard entries my junior year of college - but I don't much have the patience for it as an adult. However, in the interest of saving my sanity and that of those around me (especially my husband. I'd like to keep him around for a while and I'm not sure how many more "Kirstie Alley is so NOT 200 lbs!" style outbursts he can take...) I'm turning to you-all. Lucky you.

Of course, "you-all" consists of pretty much me and the voices in my head (kidding, kidding, there aren't any voices. Not anymore.) but whatever. Here I am, so let's go from here, shall we?

Ok, I'm 38, I'm a mother of two, married almost 17 years, working full time and trying to lose somewhere in the 100-150 lb range. (The one reader who ended up here by mistake creeps away slowly - oh dear GAWD, another weight loss blog! - yeah, sorry.)

Oh, hubby is home with my salad. More later.